Today I was diagnosed with colon cancer. I am 30 years old. I am scheduled to have my entire ascending colon removed, along with the surrounding lymph nodes, on Dec. 8th, 2011. It will be at that time that they can assess what stage of cancer I have. I am a mother, a wife, a sister, a daughter. I am a business women, I am an actor, I am a director, a producer, a Worship leader, a friend, a smiling face. I am a story teller and this is my story.... :
So, where do I start? How can I blog about something when it feels as if it's happening to another person? I'm going to live forever, right? Well, maybe not. There is an expiration date on this planet and when you are face to face with yours it changes your perspective. That stain on one of your favourite shirts from the spaghetti you had for dinner doesn't seem like such a big deal anymore. Peoples' facebook statuses don't seem so witty or, well, even worth reading. I want to scream at them, "Stop your inane writing! People are dying all around you! I am dying! Can't you see? Don't you care?".
But I'm not...dying. Not yet. It's all about attitude. It's all about facing the challenge knowing that you are holding hands with Jesus and that you have an army of family and friends marching behind you into battle. There is no better feeling in the world than to know that you are loved. That's what it's all about. LOVE. That's what it's always been about and will always be about. Don't let anyone tell you different.
I am starting this blog to tell the story of my fight... and of my victory. I have always loved a challenge and I walk into this one knowing that God never gives us more than we can handle. God must think that my family and I can handle quite a bit, given the circumstances! I look on this as an honour and an opportunity to trust that God is faithful. I will come out on the other side of this a changed woman. I will be stronger, more compassionate, perhaps even a bit more wise. My character will be molded, some weeds will be pulled, and some flowers will be planted. I know it will be a tough journey, but I believe that my spirit is prepared.